foster: Permanent

I love this song. I love David Cook's inspiration for this song and I cry every time I think of his loss.

But for me, this song is played over and over in my car, in my home, and in my head every time we start transitioning kids back home. I want to be able to tell them that I am permanent, I will be there to hold their hand, and that I won't go away. I want to take away all the pain and suffering they have experienced.

I think of their fear when someone took them away from home and everything they knew and loved. And, with these little ones, I think of their fear as they are taken from my home where they are safe, known, and loved to face the unknown. What I really want is for their parents to become permanent in their lives. I want them to say "I won't disappear again," and "I will be there to hold your hand, you're not alone." I want each child to know the stability of a parent willing to leave other distractions behind and be permanently there-mentally, physically, emotionally.

For me, today, I'll hold them and say "Everything, it will surely change, even if I tell you I won't go away today. Will you think that you`re all alone when [I'm] not there to hold your hand, and all you know seems so far away, and everything is temporary - Rest your head."



Permanent by DAVID COOK:
From David Cook's album, David Cook

Is this the moment where
I look you in the eye'
Forgive my
broken promise that you`ll never see me cry
And everything
It will surely change
Even if I tell you I won`t go away today

Will you think that you`re all alone
When no one`s there to hold your hand'
And all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary
Rest your head
I`m Permanent

I know he`s living in hell
Every single day
And so I ask, oh God
Is there some way for me to take his place'
And when they say it`s all touch and go

I wish I could make it go away
But still you say
Will you think that you`re all alone
When no one`s there to hold your hand'

When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary
Rest your head
I`m permanent
I`m permanent

Is the moment where I look you in the eye'
Forgive my promise that you`ll never see me cry...

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Secret

My blog has a secret. If you look in past posts you may see a post you have never seen before, like this one. It's a list of projects I would rather do then clean my house. My time is pretty precious these days and when I get a crying, feeding, pooping free moment I: 1st take a shower, 2nd CRAFT. Take a little peak at my list and links, you may want to start keeping secrets yourself.